Babe Vibes: Methods of Self-Care

Babe Vibes

What are “babe vibes” and where can I get some? Designer Kara Haupt developed Babe Vibes as a way to collaborate with other creative women to make publications and projects that exuded “energy, vulnerability, identity, and empowerment.” While perusing their site, I began to understand the power of living the babe lifestyle. I already had babe vibes, but neglected to recognize their true potential.

Methods of Self-Care

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Jodie Layne and Kara’s “Methods of Self-Care” zine intrigued me the most. I’ve thought a lot about self-care and what it means for me, but haven’t pinned down the best way to follow through with the action. I figured these two babes would have some words of wisdom.

Two pages in, tears puddled my bottom eyelids before stinging my cheeks. My hands covered my eyes as if I was embarrassed and didn’t want anyone to see, although I was alone in my bed. “Why are you crying? Stop it, you wimp,” I scolded myself. Then I shut up. Why was I insulting myself? I was acting like a normal human and feeling perfectly acceptable emotions. It was 12:59am, the standard time I start to shake my head, knowing I should have fallen asleep an hour ago. But I’m a night owl and reading the zine affected me. As I turned into a weeping willow, I couldn’t sleep. I needed to acknowledge what I was feeling and understand why I was crying, because there was a reason.


Identity crisis. Self-doubt. Feelings of not being good enough. Personally, all of this is a result of abandonment issues I developed at a young age (that’s a more complicated story for another time).  We all have our own internal struggles for different reasons, and there isn’t a one-size fits all solution. The “Methods of Self-Care” offers some tips to motivate its readers to take better care of themselves. The zine is both a hug and a swift kick in the butt. I want to share one of my favorite lines with you (provided by contributor Danika McClure who heard it from someone else):

“I do not have time to make other people happy when I am still learning how to make myself happy.”

This reminded me that it’s OK to put myself first, that it’s OK to ask for help, and that it’s perfectly OK to feel imperfect. Babes, we are beautiful works in progress.

I highly recommend exploring what Babe Vibes has to offer, and definitely read “Methods of Self-Care.” You can download it for free (!) or purchase a hard copy.


’15 Soundtrack: October

'15 Soundtrack: October

Self-care was at the top of my to-do list for October. It should have been at the top of my list from the get-go, but I misplaced my priorities. The art of “practice what you preach” isn’t exactly known for being easy to master, right? But I’m pretty over making excuses for myself. When I finally came to my senses, I made plans to move forward with some real changes, rather than just talking about change.

Now that I’m in a better headspace and have my priorities in check, life is on the up and up. There are so many things to be appreciative of and happy about, and the key is to find a method that doesn’t allow the good to be distorted by cracks in a reflection. As a constant in my life, music helps me look pass the cracks and stay focused. Below you can check out my ’15 Soundtrack for October. I hope you find at least a few songs to add to your own collections. You can listen to the playlist via my Spotify profile or the links below.


Claws” – Kid Cadaver
Toothbrush” – DNCE (warning: low quality video)
Love Me” – The 1975
Cry For Me” – HUNNY
F-cking Boyfriend” – the bird and the bee
Catch” – Dresses
Good Way” – Allison Weiss
HELP” – The Front Bottoms
Dancing On Quicksand” – Bad Suns
1998” – Chet Faker, featuring Banks
Over You” – Allison Weiss
Cubism Dream” – Local Natives
Lose It” – Oh Wonder
Monday” – Matt Corby

Which artists have you been listening to lately? Share in the comments section.

The Fault In Running On Empty

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Photo by Shab Ferdowsi

2015 has been my year of “yes.” I wasn’t per se a “no” person before, but I have chosen to say “yes” to more invites and more opportunities in hopes of expanding my horizons, adding to my social circle, and being more present in people’s lives. My year of “yes” has developed oodles of new friendships, meaningful connections, and some unforgettable moments. It also spread me too thin. On October 10, 2015, I was officially running on empty.

My world is music. I work in the music industry. A large percentage of my friends work in music. My favorite pastime is attending shows. At shows, my attention and energy is focused on the music and performance in front of me, rather than the number of unread emails in my inbox or complex feelings that come with life’s woes. At shows, I regain my composure.

Kid Cadaver

Kid Cadaver at The Bootleg

The last few months have been difficult, so I’ve tried to balance my stress with the benefits of live music and the company of friends. I was in luck as a lot of friends were producing and playing free or $5 gigs. The FOMO (Fear Of Missing Out) set up camp in my brain and I was RSVP’ing “yes” to most of them with a determination to come through. The word “free” was an added bonus because that meant I wouldn’t be depleting my bank account. What I ended up depleting was my immune system.

During the end of September and beginning of October, I was making it to four or more shows a week, sometimes two shows in one night. Set times were typically around 10pm or later, keeping me out while the moon was high in the sky. I slept for (maybe) five hours a night. I couldn’t even sleep much during the weekends, because my internal clock had recently made me an early riser. I became the Energizer Bunny with no energy.

Refresh ::: Recharge

So it was October 10, and although I knew better, I decided to squeeze in eight hours of live music at two different shows. By the end of the day, my body waved its red flag. I spent the entire following week working from home, sick, and kicking myself for saying “yes” a few too many times. While I confined myself in my apartment for four days, apart from the occasional step outside to breathe some “fresh” Los Angeles air, I saw a silver lining in my predicament.  Despite enduring cold symptoms, a hellish migraine, and a cough that has left me with sore abs, I now feel more rested and calm thanks to ample amounts of water, Chinese medicine and sleep. Being sick gave me the isolation I didn’t know I needed.

Cafe Gratitude

After laying in bed and sitting on my living room floor for four days, yesterday I finally flew the coop. First stop was Cafe Gratitude for brunch and a short walk around Larchmont Village. It was an incredible feeling to be out and about again with good company. I still want to make the most of my year of “yes,” which I plan to carry over into 2016, but my health and finding a balance between work, play and life’s other units will be a priority. Keep well.

If you have a moment, here’s a good read from Fast Company:
How Solitude Can Change Your Brain In Profound Ways

’15 Soundtrack: September

'15 Soundtrack: September

Photo by Shab Ferdowsi

September felt like a boxing match and I was rolling with the punches. Adrenaline, pep talks, and live music helped me survive a beating. There were constant waves of exhaustion, injuries to the heart (what else is new), and my first true experience with an existential crisis. Not glamorous, but it’s the truth. Regardless, I do know IT WILL GET BETTER. I pinned a tweet of my previous statement on my feed as a reminder to myself and anyone who visits. It’s crucial to step back and realize that whatever crap you have to pick up, you’ll be able to dump that shit right in the trash and go on with your life.

Like I said above, I learned how to roll with the punches and I didn’t allow them to completely spoil September. I went to at least two shows a week (sometimes two shows in one night) and made it a point to see my friends every chance I had. I am in love with friendship. Make sure you support your friends and make it known that you appreciate them.

Now for the music. I’ve been hooked on the energy of CHVRCHES’ new tunes and I’m impressed with Halsey’s debut full length, especially the marketing of it. I’m still jamming to Melanie Martinez and Kid Cadaver all day, every day, and talking up a storm about Years & Years. I saw them again at The Wiltern recently and it was ace. So, I hope you enjoy this month’s ’15 Soundtrack as much as I enjoy it. You can listen to the playlist on Spotify, or check out the links below.


Loudspeaker” – MUNA
F-Q-C #7” – Willow
Waves” – Kid Cadaver
Take Shelter” – Years & Years
Never Ending Circles” – CHVRCHES
Ties” – Years & Years
Coming Down” – Halsey
hold on”  – Lewis Watson (SBTRKT cover)
Clean” – The Japanese House
Bad Blood” – Ryan Adams (Taylor Swift cover)
I’m Yours” – Alessia Cara
What Do You Mean?” – Justin Bieber
It Will Come Back” – Hozier
Play Date” – Melanie Martinez
40 oz. On Repeat” – FIDLAR

Would love to hear what you’re listening to. Let’s chat in the comments.

’15 Soundtrack: August

'15 Soundtrack: August

Do I dip my toes in or jump in cannonball style? It’s a question I thought a lot about when making decisions in August. It can be difficult to find a balance between playing it cool and taking risks, but it’s OK. Each month is for learning more about my actions and reactions, and figuring how to continue to evolve into the person I hope to be.

This month was dominated by a ton of shows, a few music festivals, a lot of late nights, a wedding, mixed signals, and a lot of deep breaths to keep me going. Although physically and mentally exhausting, I can’t deny that August was fun and memorable.

Between friends’ gigs, another Warped Tour, Echo Park Rising and FYF Fest, I was on a music high. As for recorded music, one of my favorite releases was the “Cry Baby” LP by Melanie Martinez. I absolutely adore its dark playfulness and the storyline. I’ve also been jamming to New Beat Fund’s new album “Sponge Fingerz”, feeling dreamy while listening to Purity Ring, and crying on the inside because Frank Ocean still hasn’t put out a new album and also dropped out of FYF. Shout out to Yeezy for taking Frank’s place and performing a set that had me wildin’ out.

I’ve been searching for more local independent artists from LA to listen to as well. Echo Park Rising and my friends in bands, such as Kid Cadaver and Attic Empire, have reminded me that the local scene in LA is alive, hustling and thriving.

Now let’s get to the music that was the soundtrack for my August. You can listen to the playlist on Spotify, or click the individual links below. Happy listening, y’all.


Carousel” – Melanie Martinez
bodyache” – Purity Ring
It’s Cool” – New Beat Fund
Kiss Me Again” – The Drums
Keep Well” – Kid Cadaver
Undone” – the bird and the bee
Suitcase” – The New Electric Sound
Make It Real” – BABE
Bear Hands” – Private Island
Breathe, Desperately” – From Indian Lakes
Before The World Was Big” – Girlpool
Celibate Celebrity” – New Beat Fund
Super Rich Kids” – Frank Ocean feat. Earl Sweatshirt
Cry Baby” – Melanie Martinez
Ideal World” – Girlpool
heartsigh” – Purity Ring
begin again” – Purity Ring

Which songs have you been pressing play for? Let’s chat in the comments.

’15 Soundtrack: July

'15 soundtrack: cruise July turned out to be a great month for connecting with new people and going on an actual vacation; one that left me unplugged with no wi-fi or cell service. Pictured above is my mom on her birthday, enjoying the freedom of the sea.

Going on a cruise and living on a ship gave me ample time to step back, think, and ultimately go with the flow of the day, which is a rare thing. The ocean is mysterious, vast and a little terrifying, but it’s also gorgeous, exciting and can be peaceful. Sounds pretty similar to what life’s like.

Luckily, music helps me find a balance and I definitely listened to some fantastic songs in July. I celebrated and danced when the highly anticipated Years & Years album “Communion” was released. I often played Frank Ocean’s “Channel Orange” in hopes of a new album that never came. Then I revisited old loves and came across some new favorites thanks to random playlists on Spotify. BTW, I’m still Team Spotify. Sorry Apple Music.

You can listen to ’15 Soundtrack: July on Spotify, or check out the video links below.


Border” – Years & Years
Leave A Trace” – CHVRCHES
When I’m Away” – The Colourist
Steps” – Handsome Ghost
Lost” – Frank Ocean
Gorgeous” – X Ambassadors
Ain’t No Rest For The Wicked” – Cage The Elephant
Got To My Head” – Waters
Days” – The Drums
Human” – Daughter
Take Care” – Tom Rosenthal
Eyes Shut” – Years & Years
Teenage Crime” – Adrian Lux
Leave You” – Sir Sly
Hang On” – X Ambassadors

What are you listening to? Tell me in the comments.

To Be Free

I’ve had a lot of mixed feelings during this Fourth of July weekend. Being an American means that I can be whoever I want to be and chase the American Dream, which is something I can define for myself. Right now, the question “Am I free?” isn’t based on my nationality. It’s based on how much freedom I allow myself to have.  I am fortunate to have my health and lifestyle, and I’m very thankful for it, but life as a twenty something is not an exact reflection of a pretty Instagram feed of fireworks and 11am brunches with mimosas. These first years of figuring out how to be an adult is much more complicated than that, and I often let obstacles suffocate me. I’m working on it. It’s prep for the long haul of adulthood, right?  I let go on the fourth and found some freedom in Malibu on a beach with one of my closest friends. The ocean always makes me feel like I can take a deep breath and exhale all of the negativity I’ve allowed to eat away at me. I chatted with my friend, laughed, closed my eyes, listened to the waves, felt the sun hug me, and tried to clear my mind.  The day before, I was at Urban Outfitters shopping for a birthday gift and came across the book “You Are A Badass” by Jen Sincero.     I started reading it yesterday and I’m determined to learn from it. It’s a refreshing book that’s not only inspiring, but also relatable, humorous and blunt. Just what I need.

If you’re less than impressed with your current situation, you clearly need to change things up. – Jen Sincero

Every day is a chance to feel free. I just need to figure out how. Here are a few more photos from the 4th. It really was a beautiful day of positive energy. After an easy-going day in Malibu, I spent the evening with these gals and watched almost every LA firework show from a rooftop. Thanks America.     

’15 Soundtrack: June

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Photo by Shab Ferdowsi

June was dominated by work, birthday celebrations, live music, Hours Lost, and the Vans Warped Tour. In addition to supporting Neck Deep and As It Is at Warped Tour, I was given the opportunity to have a tent for Hours Lost in Ventura, CA. I’m still feeling the good vibes from the experience! You can read the recap and watch a video for it here.

Now, let’s get to the music that occupied most of my listening time. You can listen to this month’s ’15 Soundtrack on Spotify, or check out the video links below. Cheers!


Borderlines And Aliens” – Grouplove
Ride” – twenty one pilots
Contagious” – Night Riots
Pity Party” – Melanie Martinez
Can’t Feel My Face” – The Weeknd
Classic Man – Remix” – Jidenna feat. Kendrick Lamar
coffee” – Miguel
Coming Home” – Leon Bridges
Money” – The Drums
Flashlight” – The Front Bottoms
All Time Low” – Jon Bellion
Still” – The Japanese House
Wild Ones” – Bahari
It’s Alright Now” – Bombay Bicycle Club
Things Happen” – Dawes

What are you currently listening to?

’15 Soundtrack: May

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May is my favorite month for a simple reason. It’s my birthday month. Although there’s nothing special about turning 23, since most of the fun birthdays have happened already, I’m still a fan of celebrating life. We go through a lot as humans. Making it to another year should be considered a victory.

While a lot of incredible things happened during May (great shows, fun hangs and new opportunities for my clothing brand Hours Lost), I also had a tough time. I almost had a breakdown because of work. A boy I used to think highly of turned into a ghost and has completely disregarded my existence. A friend is also ghosting me. It’s a pretty terrible feeling, but I try to focus on the good in my life and the art of letting go. Yes, I am not always the happiest person, I am sensitive, and I feel too much sometimes (side note: I’m really excited about Jamie Tworkowski’s new book “If You Feel Too Much“). But I wake up every day and say to myself, “Do better. Be better.”

I hope you are doing well. Mercury is in retrograde, so be careful out there! It’s a tricky lil’ devil. Now for the good stuff. Here are the songs that helped me power through May.  You can listen to the playlist on Spotify, or check out the video links below.


Fall At Your Feet” – Saint Raymond
I Want You” – Saint Raymond
She’s A Dancer” – Youth Club
Cancel On Me” – Bombay Bicycle Club
Stick Around” – Kid Cadaver
Stressed Out” – twenty one pilots
“Goner” – twenty one pilots
Here” – Alessia Cara
You Should Be Here” – Kehlani
Shine” – Years & Years
I Can’t Keep Up” – Tourist feat. Will Heard
Sound & Color” – Alabama Shakes
Feeling Ok” – Best Coast
In My Eyes” – Best Coast
Kill The Director” – The Wombats

What are you listening to? Let’s chat in the comments.

’15 Soundtrack: April

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Photo by Shabnam Ferdowsi

April has been a month of little sleep, an unhealthy diet and STRESS. But I am alive and I am handling it. It truly blows my mind to see how much the body and mind can endure. After feeling like my body was shutting down this week, I was reminded that I need to take better care of myself. Sometimes you just need to listen to your body when it’s screaming “YO, TAKE A CHILL PILL.”

Music is typically what maintains my sanity. That and a lot of hot green tea. People often ask me what I’m listening to, which is why I like to share these playlists aka my personal soundtracks. I highly recommend the new The Wombats album. It’s ace.

I hope you enjoy the April edition of ’15 Soundtrack! You can listen to and follow this playlist on Spotify. Cheers!


“Tongues” – Joywave feat. KOPPS
“The Business of Emotion” – Big Data feat. White Sea
“Karaoke” – Smallpools
“Be Your Shadow” – The Wombats
“Lean On” – Major Lazor feat. MØ
“Sick For Me” – Big Data feat. Bear Hands
“9 to 5” – Smallpools
“Your Body Is A Weapon” – The Wombats
“The Wild Life” – Vacationer
“Got To My Head” – Waters
“Keep Your Head Up” – Ben Howard
“Stand By Your Gun” – George Ezra
“Blue Bucket of Gold” – Sufjan Stevens
“Fallingforyou” – The 1975
“Smother” – Daughter

What are you listening to?