Girl Put Your Records On: Volume 6

Photo by Chloe White
Sometimes I think about my music listening history, from middle school days through this very moment, and I find it so fun to see how my taste has evolved. It’s even more fun to revisit old songs I used to play in a loop on my iPod (whoa, ancient) and realize I can still sing almost every word (prime example: the entire “A Fever You Can’t Sweat Out” album).

I grew up on jazz and funk oldies with my mom. Fell in love with N*SYNC in elementary school. Danced to Bay Area hip hop in middle school. Turned emo in high school and went full on indie hipster in college. I’ve explored plenty of different genres, never disowning a “phase,” because they weren’t phases. Each genre represents a different part of my personality, a mood, a period of my life, and so on. 

Photo by Chloe White

Lately, I bounce mostly between a lot of alt-R&B, indie rock, hip-hop and dark pop. What I’m listening to always depends on my mood, who I’m with and my environment. See below for a blend of what I’ve been listening to the last few weeks. I was fortunate to see three of the artists live in the past two weeks (Glass Animals, Paramore and Chance The Rapper). Honestly, still blown away by each experience.

What songs and artists have you been vibing with lately? Tell me all about them in the comments section!

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Honey, Honey

Honey, honey. I will rise.

I feel on track and in tune with my inner momentum. You see, I’ve been stuck on carousels for a while. Up and down. Round and round. Stuck in a feeling.

Stuck has become one of my least favorite words. I never want to feel that way. It’s an absurd way to live life because as a human I have this incredible power of better choices, change and movement. Let’s always be moving forward, upward, sideways, and never backward or nowhere.


The beauty of analyzing the past comes with epiphanies. The “ah-ha!” moments. The “wow, why the heck did i do/say that??” moments. I’m trying more diligently to put lessons I’ve learned to proper use. I’d like to let go of a lot, while still nurturing an open enough heart and mind to let people, feelings and ideas in. 

New creative projects are in the works. Confidence in my authentic self is at an all time high. I’ve reached a new comfortable level of ambivert, which has me feeling so lifted I wake up with less anxiety and more excitement. With people or with just me, I am happy.


This is not to say I magically waved away all sinking feelings. But right now I feel balanced. Although often perceived as weakness,  I accept my softness, my sensitivity. They can be assets, just as much as my ability to be strong-willed and tough. Resilience is a major key. 

Honey, honey. I will rise.

A Staycation With Noah The Pup

After spending a week in Seattle for my team’s Create & Cultivate conference with speakers Mandy Moore, Issa Rae, Brooklyn Decker and more, I was in much need of r&r. I spent last week as a complete introvert, only seeing my coworkers and roommate Marie. Every evening after work, I made sure to do a whole lot of nothing (very rare for me), including binge watching all two seasons of Insecure and the same for Chewing Gum.

I expected a chill weekend at Jackie’s beautiful home in Atwater Village to take care of her pup Noah while she and her husband were out of town. Then the weekend became super social between catching up with friends, a show, back to back parties, etc. But luckily I still had plenty of time to stick with my duty of hanging with Noah and also relaxing and clearing my mind.

I write this while staying cozy in their living room, dreading having to leave soon. Jackie’s home was featured on Elle Decor, but I also wanted to share some snaps of my favorite spots! 











I’m going to end my stay by cuddling with Noah and reading my latest book selection, “note to self” by connor franta


I also curated a playlist for this staycation, and have enjoyed it so much I wanted to share with you. Hit that shuffle button.

Inflate Me


Inflate me with ego, desire, a new perspective. Lift me when the weight of my fears tie me too close to the ground, as I will for you.

I grasp for security in our ebb and flow. And when I rise too high, heartbeat escalating, I dread a pop.

Still, I expose and the elastic heart grows.

 

In The Quiet

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I’ll find my voice in the quiet.

Everything has been so loud, I lost myself somewhere in the shuffle. Somewhere behind rose-colored glasses. Somewhere in the darkness. Somewhere within you and them.

I lost myself when the anxieties of finding myself bewildered me.

So I’ll turn my volume down a bit. Your volume. Their volume.  Let air fill and escape my lungs more slowly. Find paths for cycled thoughts. Live in moments, not chapters.

I’ll find my voice in the quiet.

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